INTRODUCTION: OUTING THE ACTOR

Since I am an acting teacher - teaching acting for the second half of my life and acting, myself, during the first half - I will be writing about acting.  Or maybe I should say, I’ll be acting as a writer writing about acting?  Another question. Will I be writing about you, if you’re an actor reading this? Or will I be writing about myself, since, objective as I try to be, ultimately isn’t one always subjective in one’s writing?  (These may seems like odd questions, but believe me, actors find this kind of interrogation essential to their growth– and script writers write about them all the time.)                

                   

And so, my aim is to demonstrate that questions like these are gold mines for research on yourself and your relationship to the text and the characters you will play. They are at least partly subjective and can be answered in varying ways. As your personal understanding of what it means to be an ‘actor’ and engage in ‘acting’ deepens, you will begin to enjoy these puzzles and hopefully engage them as an ‘actor,’ as well as a ‘reader.’ I’m very interested in how you respond to what is said here, what you want to know, how you feel sure of yourself and where you are confused. I will read your comments, not only as a writer, but as an actor listens to another actor.       

                                                                         

OK, what do I mean when I say, as an actor? In my opinion  – and I did look this up in the dictionary and only got more confused – an ‘actor’ is one who ‘acts,’ and the most useful definition of the verb ‘to act’ is the simplest, ‘to do.’ To act is to do. At the moment of writing this ‘I am doing the act of writing about acting.’  Most of today I thought that this moment would come. I looked forward to it but managed to find some other things to do for a long time before I got around to it.  During those hours I was doing something else, not this.  If I had continued to not do this, you would not be able to read it.  If one doesn’t act upon something, it doesn’t happen.  Again, why am I going on and on about this?                                                                             

         

Well, in my long experience of acting or trying to act myself, first, and then teaching acting for almost as long as I’d stuck at the attempt, I’ve discovered that very few people who say they want to ‘act’ actually do any ‘acting’ at all – including myself for all those years when I was supposedly ‘acting.’  We read about it, attend classes, where we are often mislead or fundamentally misunderstand what we’re being told, and then ‘get up’ on stage or in front of a camera and continue to make the same mistakes. In this manner, we engage in the ‘idea of acting,’ but frequently cannot grasp the  ‘doing of acting.’

Why is this? Well… in order to get at this strange phenomenon of non-acting in which so many of us so-called actors have engaged, I would like to use the metaphor of an iceberg. Others have used it in this context, but since it describes precisely my personal experience of acting, I hope that will make up for my lack of originality.  Have you ever seen a picture of an ice-berg as it would appear if you could see below the surface of the water?  There is one photo of a huge iceberg on the Internet if you Google ‘Photographs of Icebergs’ that attempts to make the point.  It shows a tiny boat venturing onto an iceberg, but fails to make clear that the portion of the iceberg that is so treacherous, lies just beneath the surface where the boat is about to make contact. The iceberg fans way out far below, but what will sink the boat is the spikes of ice that lie directly in its path, and upon which it is about to founder. In order to connect this metaphor to acting you need to think of how it relates to the psycho/physical – and some would say spiritual - situation that an actor encounters when seriously attempting to act.       

What is ‘acting’? There is even a book with the title, No Acting, Please. How is acting  defined in the dictionary? There are several definitions in Webster’s, but the one that applies to what we are talking about here is: The act, art, or occupation of performing in plays, movies, etc.  Here we have that dangerous word, performing, which is probably what the book title just mentioned actually means: No Performing, Please. Yet, when we look up the word act, there’s no mention of performing. It’s a long entry but the first dictionary meaning for the word act is doing.

There was a Polish director and teacher of actors, who went so far as to change the word actors  to doers, when referring to performers. This gets really confusing, doesn’t it?  And why the hell does it matter, anyway, whether you call it perform, act,  or do as long as you can do it well? Oops! I mean act, or is it perform well enough to get hired for a job?  Maybe it doesn’t, but speaking personally – which is the only way, personally speaking, any of us can be really truthful – it wasn’t until I started working with this Polish director’s technique, here in America and also, all too briefly, in Poland, that I began to understand anything useful about acting. This director and teacher’s name was Jerzy Grotowski – and you’ll be hearing a lot more about him in this blog.

I think I’ve run on enough for the first time out. Please let me hear from you. What do you think about all this? For a little more clarification and background on myself, please visit my website: totaltheatrelab.com.